Polaroids and Past Times

Hopefully I wont look too much like a boy :)

Xxx

In short:

I had one of the biggest decisions of my life to make

Take a full time job with the opportunity to be trained on the job and travel, but be 200 miles away from all my family

Or move home and be close to my family, but be jobless with no guarantee of any work for Aaron and me and living at home in my parents house.

(it was a bit more complicated but that’s it basically.)

=2 days of thinking lots and LOTS of crying.

We decided on the first option (mainly because of the recession) and now I am in a full time graduate job (that I enjoy) and looking for a house with my boyfriend in the pretty countryside. But I’m also at home for a while seeing my family.

So well see how it goes!

xxx

Right so, last friday was my last day in work, and I was due to move to Wales this friday coming with Aaron.

But at about an hour after I’d finished my last day I was collecting things for my portfolio from work, and my boss decided to ask me if there was any way I’d be interested in staying and working full time. Now he said he wasn’t sure and would have to go over figures over the weekend and would get back to me, so I spent my weekend with Aaron carrying on as normal, expecting him to come back and say it wasn’t possible and to carry on with our plans.

Then Monday morning he rang up and offered me a full time job, where I could explore various options that I enjoyed doing and he would train me up whilst paying me, and then once I’d be trained and then decide with him where I wanted to specialise in the company. Now I hate doing the same things every day, and I’m not 100% sure what I’d like to do yet so for me this is perfect, and lets face it at the moment in the middle of a recession how often do you get offered to get trained to become a full time designer whilst they pay you, you just don’t. He was also offering chances to travel which means I’m not in the office every day, and if all goes well abroad too. It’s a bloody good offer. The money is kind of average for a graduate job in training, but with everything else it’s a wonderful opportunity for me.

My one problem was, I’d still be 200 miles away from my family, and in the middle of nowhere. Something that had been bothering me all year. That and the fact that Aaron didn’t have a job and we couldn’t afford full rent with just my salary.

So after lots of phone calls home, and Aaron and Jim coming around and offering me wine and shoulders to cry on, and oh there was a lot of crying.

It was such a big decision, I was either 200 miles away from my family who were expecting me home in a few days time or I gave up an opportunity for a wonderful job and moved home jobless and living with my parents, but it would be where I wanted to be.

After a LOT if talking Aaron and me decided to stay, possibly just for a year, but well see where we are when that comes. The way we saw it if I left wed both be unemployed and living with my parents with no guarantee of work this way I’m getting trained up which will be so valuable in the job market. Plus my lanlord kind of helped a lot by offering to let him move into my room whilst he looks for work in my area for just a bit more rent. So it made it such a safer option for us.

And I am closer to my friends, and we should have money to go out an do things, and well have a house to decorate and keep us busy, and there are courses nearby for us to do. It is so important for us not just just sit around and do nothing. We like to keep busy.

So I feel horrid about not being able to see my family still, but they’re all being supportive and I’ve come down to see them for a bit now before I start work next week. And I will still have people around plus I’ll have a new job and moving in with Aaron to keep me occupied for a bit!

I’ve been pretty upset and haven’t known what to do, but now I’ve finally made a decision I’m trying to see the positives. One of which with being home this week, my god I’d miss the country side if I moved back to the city. It’s so so pretty where I live and quiet and I love that. Theres so much grey here..

I’m sure it won’t be quite as easy as I see my family because I miss them so much.  But for now and for my future I think we’re doing the right thing.

xxx